You may have wondered why I haven't posted in a while. If you follow me on social media, you know I'm still alive. But the last month has been...hard, to say the least.
Even though I try to keep it light on my facebook page and instagram with all the food photos or promo codes for favorite products, I haven't exactly told you what was keeping me from updating my blog.
Well, I've been feeling the need to write a small post on that. And here it is.
During the last week of May, around a week before my 31st birthday (on June 5), my boyfriend gave me an iPhone 6. And yes, this roller coaster had to start with an amazingly great thing. I was in shock. So, so in shock. I was hoping to get my iPhone 3GS traded in for an upgrade but the most I would dream for was the iPhone 5S. But I got it, he earned infinite brownie points and I love it!
The fact that I'm telling you about this is actually meaningful. It's not bragging. My old phone was having some technical issues and I would find myself often without cell service or battery.
Two days after I got my new phone, I was at work, and got one of the most terrifying phone calls from my mom. Something had happened to my father and she needed help. I live 3 hours from them and my nerves prevented me from driving immediately to them, but I got on the phone and - in less than 5 minutes - I had called several people that live close to them, and in 10 minutes everything we could do was underway.
Having a new phone, and a great one, helped me keep a tiny bit of sanity in the midst of chaos.
My colleagues at work were relentless and helped me throughout the day and the next day I went to my hometown, to be with my mom, my grandma, and later on, my dad.
I'm not gonna go into detail on what happened but it was massive and it changed, right there, my views on life.
I spent the weekend there, and then came back home for my birthday week. I love my birthday and always enjoy it. But this year was so different that it seems almost as if I'm still 30 and I got stuck in May.
The weeks went on, with lots of medical time and lots of scheduled exams.
June 19 was the last day of school for our kids. We hugged them, sent them on Summer Holidays and it was hard on me; it always is. Anyone who works with children, knows that saying goodbye sucks. Even if it's for 2 1/2 months.
Last week we started working on the next year, had lots of end of the year meetings, parent-teacher meetings and so on. On Friday, just as I was leaving work, I called my mom to see how they were doing, as I do almost every day. My dad answered and something was terribly wrong, once again.
We're still inside this big ball of powerlessness, trying hard to brainstorm a great solution. But maybe there isn't one.
Cue Buddha's Time Quote.
That is in fact, our problem. We think we have time. We think bad things happen to others, not us. We loose sight of how precious every single moment is. And we tend to forget how everything can change in a split second.
I was forced back into the reality of time and that made me consciously try my best, to purposefully use every single moment of it.
This may seem like a cliché and it is; it was turned into that. "Enjoy your life and every moment of it" has been said so many times without a purpose that it almost lost meaning.
This is what you need to do today:
- Find your purpose in life. Run with it and towards it.
- Show your family and friends that you love them and that they're important for you.
- Don't loose track of your beliefs and don't let anyone step on them. While still being a good listener and diplomat.
- Find the time. There's probably too much time wasted on your day. Track it down and make a conscient decision to use it in a meaningful activity.
- Think in advance. Play several scenarios on your head for each and every situation that you might have on hands, and think of what you would need to do to overcome it. Think in advance is different from planning everything. This is just a cognitive exercise that helps you get better at decision-making and gets you a bit more prepared for the good, the bad and the ugly.
This was a difficult post for me. The actions of sitting down, coming up with a graphic of the quote on Canva, writing about my last month and thinking of what I believe is necessary from now on... it was hard. But I had to share. I know you'll have at least virtual hugs sending my way. And I'm in need of those.
Thank you all.
I'll see you whenever I can, hopefully soon. Getting back on my blog is part of my meaningful activity list.